Mike Mills' blog of
the film Beginners.

Mike's Intro


David Bowie's Heroes 1977

A Song I Played While Writing Beginners

When you're in love, especially at the beginning, I'm sure there's some scientific proof that your chemical make-up, your brain and what it’s capable of is actually different. You can reach for stars and things formerly impossible. Your psyche is cracked open, more flexible, you're able to evolve out of your traps, and maybe, finally, you eat what you haven't eaten in life. You want to have it all and you can see ways in which maybe you can, maybe your old stuck self was just a story, maybe there are other better stories you can tell yourself. You can be braver, more insightful, more psychic, kinder and meaner, and truly out of your old boundaries. Yes this wildness invites mistakes and delusions and tremendous fear, and this spell does go away. But the transience and the messiness of this state shouldn't be some proof that it was all false. It's easy to criticize love, especially new love, to look at it as silly or young or false consciousness - but I believe it can bring change to you, and after the new flood of love has naturally been absorbed into your life and body - the change still works on you, it keeps moving through your system though in a much more subterranean way. I saw that in my dad and myself, and it's part of what I wanted to document in Beginners, a big part actually. Similarly, it's easy to mock a song like Heroes for being too facile, too easily romantic, just pretty - but it reminds me of the wonderful heroic charge that love can give you. Like a little ritual or something - this song is for me a way to point at, and remember, and re-enact that empowering, weird, wild, sad and happy flood of new love.


I think 1977 may be my new favorite year, and Mr. Bowie in these years, the whole Berlin phase - such a beautiful man.

Here’s another great version of the same song in the same year. YouTube - David Bowie - Rare "Heroes" 1977 Bing Crosby Special